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Post by Baxie Baxter on Nov 17, 2016 21:10:40 GMT
I was with him for 5 years and this past Feb he had a mental breakdown. I have a 16 year old daughter from my previous marriage and he had the breakdown in front of her and he was violent. I decided that for the good of my daughter that I would have to leave. We were scared of him. Before this he was my teddy bear. I was so in love with this man, I still am. He was my everything. I just couldn't have my daughter around that environment. If she was grown up and gone I would have stayed with him and put him in a mental health place to get him help. I did recommend for him to get help and he was put on meds. As I write this I am crying, I miss him so very much. The divorce was ugly, one minute he was nice and the next he was so ugly with me. We can't even be friends. I miss him every single day. Just about every week I want to go over to the house just to drive by just to be able to see him. I have explained how I feel to some ppl and they said it sounds like I am grieving him. I think I am grieving the loss of the love of my life. The man he was before his break. My chest hurts just typing this. I miss him horribly.
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Post by losthurtcoping on Apr 26, 2018 16:01:47 GMT
After almost 7 years of marriage I have lost the love of my life to drugs. I hung on to him and to the hope that he would recover for the last 3 years but each day he got worse. He stole from me, my parents, and my children. He was manipulative and abusive physically. I held so tight to the perfect memories of his pre-addict self but couldn't let go of what he was turning into.
I finally see it like this - my husband, the man I loved is dead and gone - killed by the affects of the drug use over the last 3 years.
It hurts like a death. I feel a heaviness and a stabbing pain in my chest from this. Its only made worse and intensified because his physical body is still here on earth and he still attacks my emotionally.
I am praying very hard for God to release me from this person that is no longer my husband in mind or spirit. I don't wish any negativity on him. I pray for inner peace and the ability to move past this.
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Post by losthurtcoping on Apr 26, 2018 16:04:05 GMT
After almost 7 years of marriage I have lost the love of my life to drugs. I hung on to him and to the hope that he would recover for the last 3 years but each day he got worse. He stole from me, my parents, and my children. He was manipulative and abusive physically. I held so tight to the perfect memories of his pre-addict self but couldn't let go of what he was turning into.
I finally see it like this - my husband, the man I loved is dead and gone - killed by the affects of the drug use over the last 3 years.
It hurts like a death. I feel a heaviness and a stabbing pain in my chest from this. Its only made worse and intensified because his physical body is still here on earth and he still attacks me emotionally.
I am praying very hard for God to release me from this person that is no longer my husband in mind or spirit. I don't wish any negativity on him. I pray for inner peace and the ability to move past this.
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